can't sleep

I am awake and in my room, outside there is noise. This kid's camp of almost 1000 is crazy. They make noise. Wesleyan Youth make a lot of noise. It is late. They should be sleeping or preparing for bed, not outside my window playing ball at 23:28. I hate it. I want to sleep. I want to rest my bones. I want to catch up on my much needed sleep. I could start packing up my room, soon I move again. I move back to Fillmore and Steese. I must pack for a trip soon again also. I should do laundry. My next few weeks will be crazy busy. I do this. I am crazy. We finish a trip tomorrow, then we have a few days off. I go on a 10 day trip. I completely move to FillmoreSteese. I maybe drive to Ohio for a wedding. I then drive to the Adirondacks to go on vacaction with my friend and the fam. I love it. I love it some more. I walk and talk and love it even more. I come back to Fillmore. I laundry and pack. I wake up and start orientation/training for a 12 day wilderness trip. I lead. I get frustrated. I write. I grade. I love it. I come back. I clean up. I go to church with my friend. I love it. I spend the afternoon preparing in Steese. I pray. I get stressed out about the first day. I pray again. I wake up and drive. I go to classes. I hate it. I pray some more. I go to chapel and class and do homework. I enjoy and hate. My love hate relationship deepens. I repeat. I learn. I grow. I accomplish.

Day 2 of Chemo for my pap was today. I pray some more.

To: Bed